“Pockets” by Amal el-mohfamr

 “Pockets”

by Amal el-mohfamr

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Why Fish Don’t Exist by Luolú Miller

Why Fish Don’t Exist

Lulú Miller

David Starr Jordan had spent his career identifying new species of fish.

He carefully stored and tagged thousands of them in glass jars. Then the great San Francisco earthquake of 1906 hit — leaving his life's work in pieces on the floor.

In her part-history and part-memoir Why Fish Don't Exist, Lulu Miller, former host of the NPR podcast Invisibilia, writes of how Jordan — and his reaction to that moment — inspired her. 

The book is unexpected in the stories it tells as it weaves her quest for identity and an odd life story of David star jordon .

Actually a well written book, suprizing, not necessarily aligned with all of it.

“ ignorance is the most delightful science in the world because it is acquired without labor or pains and keeps mine from melancholy.”

“ web of chaos leads to a chill pessimism of everything and then there’s grand in this view it says the opposite is equally and as probable of happening”

“ and what kind into glitch helps you achieve grit - positive illusions

Maybe David Starr Jordan is proof that a steady dose of hubris is the best way of overcoming doomed odds”

Evolutionary biologist supported eugenics as a way to protect the degeneration of the species of man

An Arab proverb puts the matter bluntly: “ father a weed,  mother a weed; do you  expect daughter to be a saffron root”.

For Miller the core of the issue was do we matter or not ? 

 and she would say no we don't matter because we don't matter the odds cconfirm that there is equal chance of good as here is bad so we good

 positive and false negative but we still believe in God believe that we matter so there is room for  some hope.

 Miller does acknowledge possibility that minor interactions of people keeping one another afloat the charity people offer for one another ,and the kindness of people looking out for one another might be the very thing that tethers one to this planet ; the possibility of a web-like that are tangible interactions with people and enrich the society around them reflecting more light back into society / people/ the world and thereby strengthening it

“Humans downplay similarities between us another animals as a way of maintaining our spot at the top of our imaginary ladder.”  -  or perhaps we sit on the ladder at the top the field recognize that these other creations are closer to us though they are  still not us. 

How do you grow up and learn to stop believing peoples words about you

When I give up fish (labels). I get the promise that there are good things in store not because I deserve them not because I work for them because there is as much a part of chaos destruction and loss. Life  - the flipside of death; growth of rot . Examine each object in the avalanche of chaos with curiosity with doubt.  look at both sides wonder about the reality waiting.behind  our assumption.

Be wary of words remember that a category is at best a proxy at worst a shackle.

To turn the key to new possibilities all you have to do …  is stay wary of words.

Minor Feelings: An Asian American Reckoning By Cathy park Hong

Minor Feelings: An Asian American Reckoning  by (Korean American) poet/author Cathy Park Hong

a collection of essays that examine Asians in America.  Hong analyses the "minor feelings" of shame, discrimination and racism that Asian Americans suffer in everyday lives.

I did not relish nor rejoice inter pin and her trying to get.  Sri on it. It is the fact that fro. A cues point of view we are approaching  this life very different try that does not hinge on her being Korean, it does find itself constrain. Ed by her cis and atheists poi ts of view. For she approaches the m as aggressively as many represents the other side of the issues approach theirs.

The book was meaningful  reading for me .  I now understand better the depth of the shame factor can impact an asian’s lives , the pain not of a lack of unifying identity and a anything opposite of the use is the right and best essay fodder . Other than saying I would, recommend one skip the entire chapter on education thoughts. I can understand the concept she is describing I got it.  Perhaps some of her Broad terms might be best left alone and she can return  to specific details in her  next chapter. 

e must free ourselves of our conditional existence  - be ‘awake’ to their suffering

Even if we've been here for four generations our status here remains conditional - belonging always promised and just out of reach so that when we behave we are absorbed into the main stream society

Witnesses already recruited us to become their junior partners… conscription is every day and unconscious

Our respective racial containment isolates us from each other and forcing our thoughts and our struggles are too specialized and relatable to no one else except others in our group. I'd rather leave a blank space for my pain, than have it  be easily summed up for consumption. Sow the cratered land with candy and from its wrappers will rise Capitalism and Christianity.

Moreover I had to contend with this we. I wish I had the confidence to bludgeon the public with me like 1000 trumpets against them but I fear the way to my experiences decision professional class ,cis female, atheist, contrarian tip the scales of a racial group that remains so non-specific. We had a conference appointment it was swiftly cut down after graduation banner separation we need to hit approve ourselves again and again because we were at every stage of our careers underestimated. 

Work is great and possibly catastrophic failure since failure to imagine what it means to live together dealing with inconveniently different faces.

 A flashback to a feeling from a fear and shame, a  tight animal alertness. Childhood is a state of mind whether it be an astounding return to innocence or a sudden  flashback to unease and dread . innocence of childhood its being  protected and comforted and then the precarity of childhood  is when one feels the least protective