Friday, August 14, 2015

H is for Hawk


Helen Macdonald’s ‘H Is for Hawk’


New York Times review states
"The premise of her memoir is simple: Macdonald loses her bearings after her beloved father’s sudden death. She retreats from the human world. She’s a poet, historian and longtime falconer, and for complicated reasons, she seizes upon a strange yet sublime prescription for what ails her: She will raise and train a young goshawk, a cur of a bird to some, notoriously difficult to tame. Bigger, “bulkier, bloodier, deadlier, scarier,” she says, than other hawks they are sometimes confused with."

The book is also a history and psyco analysis of t.h.white, how to raise a falcon, and her dealing with death, and she writes lovely prose. I enjoyed her writing first and then I became involved with the story.

I is remind him in the month book where she describes looking for the world through to buy two frame to capture it all and McDonald describes her father's approach to photography
"look through the viewfinder. Stops you being involved. Stops you being scared. You No longer possess a body to fall or fail; all that exist is a square and finally groundglass and the world seen through it,"

That allows you to be a watcher in being a watcher you can learn who you are and what you can be.

In dealing with her father's death she thought that to heal her hurt she need in the flee to the wild and that what you need to do was to turn to people and for holding other human hands wildness is not a panacea for the human soul too much in the air could corrode it  to nothing.

She cautions  against being a tourist in the world as opposed to been involved in the world and isolation can bring further isolation. That community brings healing: it is the place to heal a broken heart. " I must fight  always against  forgetting" truly a gospel axiom of telling us we need to remember !

You have to be patient. If there is something you want very much, you just have to be patient and wait.

Monday, August 3, 2015

On immunity an inoculation By Eola Biss



A well crafted , well thought out book, that reads almost like a collection of essays. She , while dealing with her own doubts , uncovers part of why people--privileged, educated people, no less--choose not to vaccinate their children, disregarding scientific evidence and social responsibility. 

She hooked me with her first metaphor of Achilles , and kept me from definition to definition. 
Definitely on the 'should read 'list . The following our conversation starters from her book:

Immunity is a myth the story suggest and no mortal can ever be made invulnerable. 

A trust – in the sense of valuable asset placed in the care of someone to whom it does not ultimately belong – captures more or less my understanding of what it is to have a child.

Heard immunity – thinking not in terms of how it affects a single body but also in terms of how it affects the collective body with community mass vaccination becomes far more effective than individual vaccination. Those of us who draw on collective immunity owe our health to our neighbors.

Their primary concern in other words was with people like them- risk groups. Vaccination works by listing the majority in the protection of the minority.

When we encounter information that contradicts our believes we tend to doubt the information not ourselves.

Metaphors of alternate medicine address our base anxieties when we feel bad we want something unambiguously good.

The purpose of heroic medicine was not so much to heal the patient as it was to produce a measurable and ideally dramatic effect for which the patient could be billed.

Refusing immunity the privilege 1% are sheltered from risk when they draw resources from the other 99%.

Paternalism is interference with the liberty of another for the purpose of promoting some good preventing some harm. Not always necessarily a bad thing.

The term conscientious objector, now associated primarily with war, originally referred to those who refused vaccination.

Think about the conscience is an inner voice to keep your actions in line with publicly defendable moral standards (which may shown the lack of conscience in today's society)

Stale metaphors reproduce stale thinking mixed metaphors confuse.

It Is essential to motherhood – we must live the questions our children raise for us.

Jean-Paul Sartre said "freedom is what you do with what's been done to you."

Community is shared space - a garden we tend together

Sunday, July 26, 2015

The joy of falling into books

Brigham sent me this delightful link to an essay by Brian Doyle , Here

My dad would have enjoyed.


I am that rare man who thinks he can pinpoint the moments in which he fell in love with books, and the way that stories printed on good paper, sometimes with delicious accompanying artwork, can awake something in a child that he or she did not know was there, but was there, hibernating, patiently impatient, and then bursting forth with what we could call glee, and delight, and excitement, and passion, and hunger; for once you are thrilled by books, you realize with dawning amazement and anticipation that you are lucky and doomed both—lucky that the world is filled with more wonderful books than you can read in even three lifetimes, and doomed because you will certainly miss thousands of wonderful books even if you read thriftily, assiduously, avidly, ravenously.
But away you go anyway, one book leading to a second to a seventh to a hundredth; you emerge laughing and sighing from The Wind in the Willows and you read every other book about animals that you can find; you read one Sherlock Holmes story and you read the rest, and then venture deep into the wilderness of the rest of Conan Doyle, discovering the high hilarity of Brigadier Gerard and the haunted mania of his spiritualist works; you read one Chip Hilton sports book and you read every other book about sports you can find. The life of Lincoln somehow leads to Bobby Orr and Madame Curie; the gemlike brilliance of Chekhov leads to Frank O’Connor and Ray Bradbury; Li Po leads to Lee Child to Harper Lee, and on and on and on.
I do remember reading The Wind in the Willows, and the Chip Hilton novels, and Tom Swift and Tintin and the Hardy Boys and the Bobbsey Twins and Nancy Drew, but it is a book I read when I was perhaps 10 years old that rises to memory this morning, as the book that tipped me over into some subtle but telling pleasure that has not only fed 50 years of reading but 40 years of writing, 40 years of trying to put thoughts and feelings and intimations into words and sentences and paragraphs and passages, trying to make sensations into stories, trying to articulate that which cannot be explained or understood, but which can most certainly be felt, and, if the writer works hard enough, perhaps shared.
It was Christopher Morley’s Where the Blue Begins, the quiet blue cloth first edition, 1922, with drawings and color plates by the inimitable Arthur Rackham. I was ill and abed, as I recall; I have the faintest memory that it was late summer, hot and windy outside, and dense and silent inside the house; and I picked up the book, and began to read, and for the first time that I remember I was in the story; I had been sucked into it in all my parts, so that after an hour or so, when my mother came to check on me, I was genuinely startled to see her, and to slowly recognize my crowded cheerful bedroom, for I had been strolling along with Mr. Gissing for quite some time, thick as thieves, chasing after that mysterious faraway most alluring blue.
This has happened many times since then, and many is the book in which I plunged so deeply and thoroughly that when I finished I was discombobulated to find myself in a chair, or bed, or library nook, when just a moment before I had been at sea with Captain Aubrey, or on the tundra with Barry Lopez, or deep in the jungle with Joseph Conrad whispering conspiratorially in my ear; and I have been blessed enough as a writer to several times receive letters from readers startled and displeased when a book of mine ended, and there was nothing after the last sentence but a blank page, as trackless and remote as a Pole. One reader wrote to me recently to actively complain that a book of mine had ended, and she wished to know, by return mail if possible, what had happened next to the people in the book, whom she had come to like very much, with all their flaws. I wrote back carefully, to say I was not privy as yet to what happened next, though perhaps that news would arrive in its own time; and I continue to think that I could not possibly receive a greater compliment than that, though it was offered with a certain vinegar. She had been lured irresistibly into a story, just as I had been so many times, and you, too; do we celebrate that subtle delight as much as we should? Do we salute and honor the way that books so quietly and gracefully become countries and ships and planets, the way they are extraordinary and graceful time machines, the way they hook billions of children on the joy of narrative and imagination? We do not, I think; we take the gift of books and stories a little for granted, because the miracle is so subtle; but pause for a moment yourself, this morning, and think about the books you fell into too, as a child, and when you were interrupted, or when you finished, there was that odd discombobulatory instant when you were not quite sure where you were. A wonderful instant, isn’t it? Never forget.

Sunday, July 12, 2015

The Wright Brothers


The Wright brothers 
by David McCullough

One review cited: 
Mechanical invention is close to a religious calling in this reverent biography of the pioneers of heavier-than-air flight by Pulitzer-winning historian McCullough
And the nytimes opined
. Or because the Wrights’ asceticism and single-mindedness sound so uncomplicatedly heroic.

Fairly straightforward non pulsing book interesting read not a compelling read.  The history is amazing - the focus, the talent, the application of the men .  the writing not so much-perhaps in my naivety perhaps i miss the skill of his writing that his writing doesn't get in the way of the story it's a plain simple story plain simple facts, plain and simple yet incredible men. 

Sunday, June 7, 2015

All The Light We Cannot See



‘All the Light We Cannot See,’ by Anthony Doerr

This book is full of the rich sentences and structure which so delight me in reading. E.g.
"To shut your eyes is to guess nothing of blindness. Beneath your world of skies and faces and buildings exists a rawer and older world, a place where surface planes disintegrate and sounds ribbon in the shoals through the air. Marie-Laure can sit in an attic high above the street and hear lilies rustling in marches two miles away ... she hears the tamarinds shiver and the jays shriek and the dune grass burn; she feels the great granite fist, sunk deep into the earth's crust, on which Saint-Malo sits, and the ocean teething at it from all four sides."

Never a big fan of jumping back and forth between years to weave the fabric of a story; here Doerr does it without bugging to much, I think in part it is by his structure of keeping chapters short, still don't like the technique.  NPR's summation - A blind French girl on the run from the German occupation and a German orphan-turned-resistance tracker struggle with their respective beliefs after meeting on the Brittany coast.

The essence of the story is the crossroads built in the experiences of " Marie-Laure (who)grows up (blind) beloved and fortunate; Werner’s life is more grim. He is close to his sister, Jutta, but both are consigned to an orphanage after their father is crushed in a coal mine. For Werner, there truly seems to be no future: The German government decrees that when boys from his region reach their midteens, they must go to work in the mines. But Werner is also a prodigy. Just as Marie-Laure’s father has a genius for creating locks and models, Werner has a way with electrical circuits. He builds a shortwave radio that holds the key to his future." As Germany heads into then deeply emerges itself and France in WWII.

The story is at once compelling  as the author shares the choices his characters make and on the souls that have been lost, both living and dead. At once making the story a quick and driving read - but similarly the sadness of those losses and incredible evil of war. A well written book, which covers war, can not but help but bring a degree of sorrow to me and gratitude that i have not personally  gone to war;  and even more grateful for those who have on my behalf. Even more tragic is the snares an evil world lays for the young teenage protagonists. How society , with its war machine dehumanizes the young Werner ; and survival isn't the clear victory we imagine.

not interested to dive into the title. But I like it on several levels.



Saturday, January 24, 2015

Mr penumbras 24- hour book store

Mr. penumbras 24 hour bookstore 
by Reuben Sloan

A delightful book in many ways
I kept finding myself googling stuff to see if it's real
The one most intriguing ,which I have no answer for , is there, are there , repositories like the cave in nyc. I guess there is at least three 1) wherever the gold plates are and 2) where the urim and thumin are now -figuring the church has in possession 3) the Vatican archives. You got a bet there are more- you ever hear of others? Brigham noted The book cavern tended to remind him of the forgotten book library of Carlos Ruiz Zafon's

My copy of the book came from the library. The library is still a great source of discovery and learning. The learning from penumbra well here they are:
        - All the secrets in the world worth knowing her hiding in plain sight.
        -  There is no immortality that is not built on friendship and work done with care.
        - It's not easy to imagine the year 3012 but that doesn't mean you shouldn't try
         - Your life must be an open city with all sorts of ways to wander in
Any how , needed a good read - thanks to Brigham  for recommending it, is he so often does. 

And so the memory of this book will fade The way all books fade  in your mind but remember this to still look for the right book and exact right time to read it.

2015


2015
As I've pondered what might be the single most important goal for me as a person, father and husband for 2015 I've come to focus on spirituality. Acquiring more of it, being more guided by it, and having it make a difference in aligning my life in doing what the lord would have me do in the general and for specifics. 
As such there are two quotes and one scripture that seem to me to be the core for me, in developing spirituality:

David o McKay quote ( my favorite )
Spirituality, our true aim, is the consciousness of victory over self and of communion with infinite.

Julie beck quote  ( moms favorite )
The ability to qualify for, receive, and act on personal revelation is the single most important skill that can be acquired in this life.

The lords guarantee
D&C 82:10
 i the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise.

So that's my focus for 2015. 
I hope you've identified yours- if not I invite you to join me in mine. You can ponder the quotes and see what they might mean for you.Make it a great year.
 

On a general note the following blog by the accidental creative provides 7 questions to answer to prep your year. If you need more to ponder for the year listen to the podcast -14 min